♥ The 1st day i am leading without YOU ♥

This is the first day i am leading without you...
And yeah at first, i really hated you for not having a very clear distinction of relationship that lied upon us... Seriously and honestly, i am in doubt if u really like me... BUT Serene told me that you really like me and i am so glad to hear that,sincerely... Same applied to me, without my own acknowledgement, i seriously fall in love with u, madly.

That night, i really cried out loud... And believe it or not? this is the first time i have ever feel pain when the relationship comes to the end. Dun ask me why coz i have no idea what's is going wrong in me. This is because i used to be the cruel party and move on without turning back. i am here sincerely apologise for not standing on their feets and their point of view. I am sorry!! One of my best friend-irene consoled me that she experienced this before... And trust me, it's hurt and it's enough to kill one people. This is what i am feeling right now....

I know deep down in my heart, i will always be there waiting for u and keep on hoping...
Time is all the factor and i believe everything is gonna be fine soon... i am sorry for not being rational enough when u asked me to be with u... that night and all these things were just too fast and obviously we are still not ready for this... Maybe, Maybe at that time, both of us were madly in love and didnt think of the consequences and the reality that we are just too busy leading our own life...

But i didnt regret for being so actuation to decide to be with you. This is so memorable, sweet and loving that make me cant resist to demand more and more from you... i just cant help myself out of this. And thanks for willing to come all the way down from Nilai tu Subang to meet up with me. thanks and i appreciate it. this is really sweet and kind of you! Other than that, i wanna apologise for keep on rejecting ur request to come over and find me. Seriously, u know how much i missed u right, it's more than anything...But still, i have to be rational.

I misses the hugs and the moment when i am lying down on ur shoulders, misses the passionate kiss that we ever had and misses ur nose that i like the most! In this day, i cant eat well, sleep tight and lead my life well. i just feel that something is missing in me.

I really wanna to know how are u doing there? leading ur life like usual or u feel the exact way of how i feel either? 

p/s : i will always love u