Less expectation, then there would not be any unnecessary disappointment.

I'm just a fool always giving myself a chance or a try over and over again. Giving myself False hopes over and over again. I should have seen it coming.

It's destined to be that way. Bear with it and suck it up!

Reflection

Today my friend asked me a question. When I heard of the question. I'm shocked and I'm trying to avoid.

She asked me if I do fall for someone? At least once. At the moment when I heard this, I don't feel like answering because I don't wanna admit that I still love you despite of everything. I know that it has been two years plus. Yet, I'm not over it.

I do not have hopes that we are going to see each other again or even fall for each other again. But I will still love you, like I always do. Or perhaps it's the most beautiful encounters that God has given to me in my life.

After Since I Left Malaysia

It has been two months since I left Malaysia.
Hmmmm here is a new post to answer the common and normal question that you all asked.

This is something that i always wanted to do and acheive. Being in a foreign country where no one knows me. Experienced different culture. Met new people. Experienced a Christmas with real snow. Be in a University where i can decide what subjects to study. Learn how to be independent and decisive. build up a strong character and personality.

Frankly speaking, even though I have been in UK for two months. But still, every morning when i first wake up and open up my eyes, i still could not believe it. I just couldn't believe that my dreams came true. Because i know that this is what everyone on Earth is wishing for and i am so blessed and lucky to have it so easily. Oh my omnipotent God, i really wish that you can understand how grateful i am right now for everything you have given to me. I just cant put it in words how you make me feel.

Back to the question, I am doing fine here. Well, everything has been going smooth and nice here. The people here are indeed very helpful and friendly. So do not worry about me, the people here are so willing and happy to help me out. Class started already, the timetables and syllabus are not as tension as what i used to have back in Malaysia. I have four subjects for the time being. European law, Professional Developments, Intellectual property and Critical thinking&Legal reasoning.

Okay. Enough with the foreplay. Even though i like it here. But the food over here is tasteless. Like seriously. Well. Maybe it is because of the culture here where they do not really cook. They just merely microwave or put it in an oven. Ewwww, that's gross! Hmmm i mean the food is tasteless. Lmao! Really wish that i can get a boyfie who really keen on cooking.

Like you all know, there is no night life over here where we could hang out with friend or we call it 'yum-cha'. When it is night time, i will just rot in my room. Doing nothing. Looking at old pictures in my computers. Recalling the memories that i had. Missing everybody back in Malaysia. Trying to listen to some songs that has the lullaby effect which can put me into sleep.

I dunno what's wrong with me. Perhaps i am just nostalgia. I sincerely hope that each of you are doing well in Malaysia. I miss you. 

' Stop Lynas Save Malaysia '

I do believe that people nowadays has been talking and discussing about the Lynas thingy.

' Stop Lynas and Save Malaysia ' isnt merely a slogan. It is something all of us should fight for even though i am very devastating to say that our leader of this country still did not see it or they outweight the money more than life, i would say so.

 No matter whatever it is, i am not interested and i could not care more to comment on it. However, i do always truly believes that there is alternative for everything. Since our leader could not see what is the consequences of legalizing Lynas, then we are going to tell 'em. This time, we will take a more pro-active role because this is not about race, religion and gender. It's life that we are talking about.

 Supposingly, they are the one who represents us, the society. But i really dunno since when they are on their own and we have to fight to retain our fundamental right which is the right to life. I wonder how funny is this, but this is what was happening right now. But still, i am so glad and grateful to know that everybody are working together regardless of their social background, races and religion to protest against this. This is absolutely amazing, i mean the power of working together.

Perhaps one day our leader will realise what's the consequences of legalizing Lynas which might harm all human being on Earth including their love ones.

 Lets be brave enough to speak out and be courage enough to make a change people ! =)

Valentine day

Hmmm like I always did, I'm always single. So there are quite a lot of people ask me, why so? You are so pretty, it's impossible that you are always single.

I'm not saying that No guys are coming after me. It's just that maybe It's me and not 'em. I mean frankly speaking, I'm not going for the looks but personality. Because this is what doesn't fade away as time goes by and which attracts me all the time and eventually make me love him even more.

Recently people just keep asking me this question coz for your information I'm turning 21 this year. So yeah, I have been considering about this.

After discussed with one of my friend who is single either, I found out that the reason that I keep being single and the relationship doesnt work No matter how is because I'm afraid and I'm not being myself and true to myself. It's like I really like him but to prevent myself from being hurt, I always pretend that I don't really care.

You know what? I just didn't realised that by protecting myself too much, I will never found my true love or the one who is meant for me.

For a relationship to work the best, we must be true to ourselves and our partner. Do not try to be ego and hidden all the feelings away from him. Besides, a relationship needs the commitment and sincerity from two person who truly wanna be together.

So it seems like there is still slot of things that I need to learn. BTW I'm here wishing all the sweet couples on this earth a very sweet and sexy Valentine! =)

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