I am kinda having a mood swing recently... all of the bad things or not actually bad just happened in all of a sudden which i really didnt think of or expected...

what i had thought is no matter what is gonna happened in our class...i will at least have someone who can turn to and talk to... but too bad, things never turn out to be what i actually thought it would be...Some point at the end, i get a big disappointment in return...

I keep on telling or actually hypnosis myself that it's okay, it doesnt matter...somehow i just left 2 more months to go before i will have finished my A level... but the things is i still, very concern and care about it... this is because u are my friend, one of my best friend... i seriously thought that u would have know me and understand me than any others of out friends...BUT, the fact is, u are not...

YEAH, i admited that sometimes i am terribly noisy just like a factory  ;
sometimes i like to gossip and 'concern' about others life....
but i just merely wanna know what's happening and i dun meant to do something bad...
i seriously thought that u know and u ought to know...
maybe i have overestimate the relationship that lied within us...
maybe it's all my fault...for bringing u all the troubles...maybe i shouldnt have been so urge and confronted him and let things become even worst... BUT, i didnt meant it and dint meant to put the blame on anyone...
i dun feel like explaining it...coz the more i explain the worst off things will be...
so i think i will just left all this behind..thou i dun wanted to...i dun wish to...
This maybe will lead us to the 'full stop' of our friendship due to the seedtime of this accident

i dunno what can i do nor say...
Just i am glad that i met u in my A level lifes and u really brighten up one branch or even a chapter of my life story...Though it maybe just a small part of it but THANKS for giving colours in my life and i really appreciate it...
love u my friend, all the best in ur future undertakings and the coming A2... ~♥